Problems

I am in need of forgiveness. I forgot that I was connected to God. I forgot the statement from a Course in Miracles that says "you do not have any problems, you only think you do." I became worried, forgot to be thankful, took my ego back on and told myself I was what I have. I began to tell myself I must accumilate and that I did not have enough. In this moment I began to get scared, began to worry, began to blame, took my revenge and became angry. I did not know what I was doing in that moment. I am in need of forgiveness. It happen so quickly, and I was able to recognize it just as quickly. I am no better than anyone who reads the pages here. I could learn just as much from anyone who reads these pages if they were to talk to me as they can learn here. I am just trying to be better than I used to be. Dr. Wayne Dyer has said that "true nobility is not about being better than anyone, it is about being better than I used to be." I know today that I am better than I used to be.

I learned in that moment how I can hurt others because I lose my connection to God. I know that I still worry and get scared and it turns to anger. I learned that it is all in my mind. This morning as I wake up nothing has changed in the physical world, but my thoughts have changed and I am no longer worried, scared or angry. I have solved the problem. I re-establish my connection God's spirit and the problem is solved. I hope that today I can live with this verse in mind:

Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.
Philippians 4:8-9

Today I will look for ways to be an instrument of peace today. I can choose peace rather than this today. I need to sow love rather than my anger. This can only be done be living in connection to my God and God's spirit. I have been making the wrong kind of choices in my mind and telling myself what the world ought and should be, rather than focusing on what I have thankful for and allowing God to work. The way of Jesus is just that - a way, a path - I got off the path. I do everyday. I am a human being in need of forgiveness. I forgive myself. I learned so much from the experience and it is why I needed to go through it. It is all between me and God anyway.

Let the peace of Christ keep you in tune with each other, in step with each other. None of this going off and doing your own thing. And cultivate thankfulness. Let the Word of Christ—the Message—have the run of the house. Give it plenty of room in your lives. Instruct and direct one another using good common sense. And sing, sing your hearts out to God! Let every detail in your lives—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way. Colossians 3:15-17

Namaste'