Worthy

We all have a hard time believing that we are worthy. We have thoughts that tell us that we will "never" be good enough. We listen to others opinions that say that we will "never" do "anything" right. We work and strive so hard to be worthy of love and forgiveness. We even think that God is waiting of us to get it right before we can be worthy of love. We grow up and get told that we are not good enough unless we color within the lines, play the right notes, go to college, have the right career, and always have enough. We forget the concept of grace - there is nothing we can do to make God loves us more - and there is nothing we can do to make God love us less. We forget where we came from and that we are children of God.
I love a story that I heard recently. A mother and a father just had a newborn son. They already had a three year old daughter that was just about to turn four. She desperately wanted to go see her little brother alone in his room while he was in the crib. The parents were very reluctant to leave her alone with the baby and at first told her that she would not be able to do that alone. She was very upset, but the parents then remembered that they had baby monitors. So they relented and allow her to go in while they listened on the monitor. They could hear the sound of feet walking across the room toward the crib and then onto the stool so she could peer over the crib to see the baby. Then they heard the most amazing thing! The little girl asked her baby brother "Tell me what God is like, I have almost forgot."
I get chills when I hear this story and tell it again. It makes me think about a passage of scripture:

"Don't bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This isn't a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we're in. If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn't think of such a thing. You're at least decent to your own children. So don't you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?" Matthew 7:7-11

It is almost as if Jesus is saying to us, "Who told you that God was hiding from you and that you have to bargain with him to get what you need? Who told you that lie? Who told you that you were not worthy of God's love?" We know how to be good to those around us, and especially our children. Our children do not have to bargain with us to get their needs met. They are worthy of our love just because. We are God's children and we are worthy because he created us. God does not hide from us, but actively pursues us. So today stop running and looking for God because you may actually be running away from God. Stop and let God's love run over you. God is not hiding from us because we are unworthy. We are running from God because we think we are unworthy. Know today that you are God's child. Remember that you came from God and are worthy of the Creator's love. Stop running and looking for God thinking he is hiding. God is right here right now and you are worthy of God!

Namaste'